Confessions of a Pastor Struggling with Anxiety
I started my career as a young, zealous pastor who wanted to change the world. I wanted to do everything I could for God. But, by the second year of ministry I was battling depression and anxiety.
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To my Past-Self Who Knew Very Little About Anxiety
Dear anxious Rosie,
You are not alone in your anxiety.
God feels incredibly far away at this moment, but the truth is, He has never been closer to you. He hasn’t discarded you because you are too difficult or too broken to love. He hasn’t broken any of His promises to you. He is holding you together right now. Don’t give up on trying to find God.
How Can I Be Happy if I’m Not Good-Looking?
When I wasn’t pining for plastic surgery, I was obsessed with losing weight. I repeatedly vowed to eat less, but was trapped in a vicious cycle of failure and self-loathing. Defeated by my failed attempts, I would think: What hope is there for someone like me, with neither great wealth nor remarkable beauty, to attain happiness?
Jacob and Jaclyn: Extending Hospitality Amidst Pain
It was two weeks before the wedding and everything was running like clockwork— just as how Jacob and Jaclyn Lau had expected.
Jaclyn, 29, was waiting excitedly outside the arrival gates of Changi Airport when her phone rang. It was Jacob. He had been admitted to the A&E after experiencing a lack of coordination on his legs.
A Father Reflects on a School Tragedy
I do my best to hug, kiss, and remind my kids that I love them every day. Eventually, there will come a day when it will be the last time that I get to do so.
Deaths always feel shocking and unnatural. When it happens to young children, in a place where they are supposed to feel safe, it feels even more confounding and heartbreaking.
3 Reminders When You’re Stuck in a Dead-End Job
I’ve only spent 10 years in the workforce, but I’ve already had a few dead-end jobs. Of course, they didn’t start off that way, but the excitement I felt would gradually fizzle off once I got the hang of my job, leading me to feel like I was caught in a dead-end.
3 Things I Got Wrong About Trusting God
We all know what it’s like to grapple with hurt or disappointment when our trust gets broken or when we find ourselves breaking someone else’s trust.
Why Is It So Hard to Go Back to Church After Getting Hurt?
Growing up, I had always wondered why those who have left church found it hard to come back.
I saw old friends, mustered pained smiles, said respectful hellos to some of the elders . . . but it just didn’t feel the same.
When I Was Betrayed by a Fellow Christian
Some time ago, there was a situation that made me extremely angry, to the point that I raised my voice and slammed my hands on the table