I Don’t Have A Life-Changing Testimony, And That’s OK

Written By Jean, Malaysia, Originally In Simplified Chinese

I was born into a Christian family. Since I was young, I have been attending weekly Sunday School classes, Sunday services and even family cell groups.

Growing up in church, I often heard stories of people’s extraordinary encounters with God. Some were healed from their sicknesses. Some heard God’s voice when they were invited to church one day. Some were filled with the Holy Spirit and after accepting Christ, their lives were completely transformed.

Such testimonies amazed me. I came to believe that if I, too, had such a powerful testimony, I could definitely bring more people to Christ.

Even though I fully believed that Jesus died for my sins and resurrected after three days,  I was once told that the mark of someone who is saved is a life-changing testimony. After some time, I started to believe that only believers with such compelling testimonies were true Christians. And this bothered me greatly because I didn’t have a dramatic testimony. Was I truly saved?

While wrestling with this question, I continued serving actively in church, reading the Bible, and praying daily. During this period, God faithfully ministered to me through sermons, His Word, and the people around me. In spite of these, I still struggled with my salvation.

In pursuit of a “perfect” testimony, I decided to deliberately attempt to stray from God. I stopped reading the Bible and praying. I also tried to serve less in church. I thought that having such experiences would give me a great story to share about how I had “turned away” from God and then turned back to Him again.

However, my heart was not at peace even as I went through with my plan. I was afraid to pray even though I wanted to. Then one day, I decided that it was time to “repent”, and I began to read the Bible and pray again.

Deep within, I felt quite pleased that I finally had a seemingly “perfect” testimony. However, whenever I thought about sharing this “testimony”, my heart would not be at peace—because I knew that I had fabricated it. Whenever I shared my “testimony”, I would always feel guilty.

I finally realized how foolish I had been when I was 16 years old and read an article that a friend had shared on Facebook, which was written for those who had grown up in Christian families.

It started with a story of a girl who was frustrated at not having a seemingly “perfect” testimony. She asked her mother if maybe she had not been “wayward enough,” and so God had not given her such a testimony? This grabbed my attention. Wasn’t this girl just like me?

I reflected on the article, and it reminded me that God gives all of us different stories. Even though I don’t have a dramatic testimony, I still have stories of my personal encounters with God in my daily life. For example, God has always been faithful in answering my prayers, whether I am praying over exams or friendships. Sharing these little stories with my family in Christ has often been encouraging for them.

And while I do not have any exciting stories to share with non-believers, I can still find many opportunities to share about God and how He’s worked in my life. Friends in school might ask me why I am not worried about exams, for example, and then I would have an opportunity to share about how God is with me in everything. I don’t have to envy the testimonies of others because God will use different stories to draw different people to Him.

Most importantly, the greatest story—the story of how Jesus came down to earth to redeem all men and draw us to God—has already been written, and all of us get to participate in that story.

I slowly came to the realization that I did not need a dramatic testimony to be saved. I was already saved when I acknowledged Christ as my God and believed in Him with my heart (Romans 10:9).

I felt ashamed of my ignorance. However, I was thankful for this experience as it reminded me that our Christian life is not just dependent on dramatic testimonies. What matters most is that I work on building my relationship with God, by spending time with Him daily, sharing my thoughts and feelings with Him, and asking for His guidance in life.

We don’t have to worry about having the “perfect” testimony, or envy others for their testimonies. Such envy is futile! The important thing is that we fight the good fight, run our race, and stand firm in our beliefs (2 Timothy 4:7).

Take a leaf out of the Bible

Title: Take A Leaf Out Of The Bible
Artwork by: Bonny (@lovetheark)
Description: Have you ever noticed how often plants are mentioned in the Bible? This project takes a deeper look into the significance of some of the plants recorded in the Bible. The next time you come across one of these plants, may it serve as a reminder of the truths we can learn from different scenes in the Bible.


Fig Leaf

Adam and Eve gave in to temptation and disobeyed God’s instructions in the Garden of Eden. Their eyes were opened to sin and in their shame, they used fig leaves to cover their nakedness. The perfect love relationship between God and man was broken.

‘But the Lord God called to the man, “Where are you?”’ (Genesis 3:9). Despite their disobedience and the alienation they experienced with God after that, He sought them out and clothed them with garments of skin (Genesis 3:21).

In the same fashion, God has provided us with a covering through Jesus Christ. When we put our faith in Him, we stand justified and will never be put to shame (Romans 10:11).


Palm Branch

During the triumphal entry of Jesus into Jerusalem, a massive crowd had spread palm branches on the road as they praised God and welcomed “King Jesus”. They thought that He would be the one to overthrow the Roman rule and deliver them from their oppression.

But today, we know that Jesus came to fulfill the Scripture—to deliver us from our sin through His death and give us eternal life by His resurrection. And He will come again to restore everything and declare His Kingship over all the earth.

As believers today with full knowledge of the true identity of Christ, do we anticipate His second coming with the same longing and joy?


Mustard Seed

Many of us worry that our faith seems too small, doubting that God acknowledges it. So we try means and ways to grow our faith, hoping that God would recognize it somehow.

However, our faith does not thrive when we focus on how much faith we have; it thrives when we focus on the object of our faith—Our Almighty God.

Even with faith as small as a mustard seed, He can accomplish His great purposes through us. Our faith is crucial not because it is great, but because He is. No matter how insufficient we think our faith is, let’s keep on praying, knowing that He hears our prayers.



“Jesus replied, “The hour has come for the Son of Man to be glorified. Very truly I tell you, unless a kernel of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains only a single seed. But if it dies, it produces many seeds” (John 12:23-24).

Using an allegory that foreshadowed His death, resurrection and salvation plan, Jesus likened His body to a kernel of wheat that dies and produces a great harvest. In His grace and mercy displayed through His death, His sacrifice gives eternal life to all who believes in Him.

We can embrace the new and abundant life we now have in Christ. But this includes denying ourselves as we choose to follow Him. Self-denial is no easy task. No matter how hard it may be, may we always choose to live a life that bears fruit and honors Him.



Olive Branch

On the night before Jesus’ crucifixion, He went to the Garden of Gethsemane to pray. The word “Gethsemane” means “place of the olive press”—and that perfectly encapsulates the suffering that Christ had to endure for our sake.

May we always remember that our salvation came at the cost of Christ’s suffering, and respond with worship that is rooted in gratitude.




“Consider how the wild flowers grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you, not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today, and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, how much more will he clothe you—you of little faith!” (Luke 12:27-28)

God provides for the wildflowers and grass of the field much more than Solomon, Israel’s wealthiest king, could provide for himself. Likewise, He provides for His people—and much more!

Because of His complete knowledge of us and His faithful provision, we do not have to worry about our needs or what lies ahead of us. In seeking God’s Kingdom first, let us give of our time, possessions and talents generously and joyfully because in Him, we lack nothing (Psalm 23:1).


I’m Saved. . . Now What?

Written By Breonna Rostic, USA

I dedicated my life to Christ at the age of 17. I was in the garage then, and the (what I now know to be) Holy Spirit caused unexplainable gratefulness to consume me.

Out of the blue, I began thanking God for everything He’d given me—all the blessings, set-backs and experiences in life. I fell to the cement floor weeping, in my garage full of lawn equipment, dust, and the smell of motor oil.

It was one of my best, but also most awkward, moments. Eventually, I collected my thoughts and got my emotions under control. While I was overjoyed with my decision to give God my life, I couldn’t help but wonder, “Now what?”

Throughout our lives, we often have the chance to ask ourselves, “Now what?” We graduate high school. Now what? Go to university and get a degree. Now what? Start a career, get engaged, build a family. Now what?

I have found that we ask the same thing about our faith. Being saved is a significant milestone for every born-again believer. We have been saved through our faith in Jesus Christ and by His grace alone. But once we are saved, what should we do? Are we required to do anything? Is salvation the beginning? Or the end of our faith journey?

Below are three things I’ve found incredibly beneficial in my faith journey since that day in the garage, and I hope they can help you as well.


1. Drawing near to God

God desires a relationship with us. And giving our lives to Him opens the best relationship we’ll ever have. Like any other friendship, an intimate and meaningful bond requires work. It takes time to get to know a person, and the same is true of God. We must invest time to see the relationship develop and mature. The Bible says that if we draw near to God, He will draw near to us (James 4:8).

We can draw near to God in a number of ways—through daily devotional time, studying and meditating on His word, prayer, and fasting. These are great everyday disciplines for increasing in the knowledge of God.

However, we shouldn’t get so caught up in legalities that we turn the relationship into a set of religious practices. Spiritual disciplines are about creating consistent communication in the intimate spaces of God, without becoming ritualistic and unavailable for spontaneity.

God can meet us in the most unexpected places if we make time and listen for Him. Sometimes I’d jump in my car without a destination, asking God where He wants to go—we’ve ended up in some very unique places. I’ve also found that praying in nature, or cooking and singing worship songs, are good ways for me to freely connect with Him. Invite God into your daily life, and He will show up.


2. Understanding the Kingdom of God

As we draw near to God, specifically as we read the Bible, we start to encounter teaching about the Kingdom of God. God is the King of kings, and the Bible is a story about the King, His kingdom, and His creation. It is important that we seek to understand the Kingdom message.

The Kingdom of God isn’t just our destination in heaven, but our current reality and function on earth (Luke 17:21). In simple terms, the kingdom of God is about God’s reign over all things, not just in heaven (Psalms 103:19). When we repent and submit to the lordship of Christ, we are already part of the kingdom of God. In Matthew 3:2, Jesus said, “Repent, for the Kingdom of heaven has come near.”

The Kingdom message has helped me grow in my journey. No longer do I think of my salvation as just my ticket to heaven. Now I see that I am restored as a co-heir with Jesus (Romans 8:17), and so I have the responsibility to live under Jesus’ reign here and now.

In John 14:12, Jesus says that all who believe in Him will go on to do greater work than He. Understanding that God is working in our world and in our lives right now means that I do not merely look forward to life after death. Instead, by God’s grace I can serve as salt and light in the world, trusting that He will use even the likes of me to build His Kingdom.


3. Making Disciples

And finally, once we’ve learned to continually draw near to God, and once we understand the message of the Kingdom, we can make disciples. Jesus told His disciples to go out and teach all nations, making disciples in His name (Matthew 28:18-20). This is known as the Great Commission.

The word “disciple” means to become a follower or student. In other words, Jesus is instructing us to teach what He’s taught. It’s our responsibility to foster relationships that show people Jesus’ great work, our identity in Christ, and the good news of the Kingdom. By doing this, we serve as a living example of what it looks like to follow Christ. And because of our transformation through our salvation, as well as time spent drawing near to God, we can inspire others to be transformed as well.

I’ve found that making disciples doesn’t have to be as frightening or as challenging as I used to believe. Instead, making disciples is about loving our neighbors as we love ourselves (Mark 12:31). I used to put a lot of pressure on myself to save people. I would feel responsible for forcing others to learn the gospel. I used to focus on getting people into the church building, instead of showing them the love of Christ first.

In reality, we can’t save people; we simply live a life that points to the Savior. When we make disciples, we show them how great God is and what He’s done for us. It’s about a relationship, one that ultimately creates a desire for a relationship with God.

I strive to live my life that shows my unsaved family what Jesus means to me. But now I’m careful not to push my faith on them. Instead, I love them and share the good things happening in my life. Amazingly, this encourages them to ask me about the God I serve. Making disciples can happen in many settings: church, work, school, and especially in our own homes.

Earlier in this article, I asked the question, is giving our lives to Jesus the beginning or the ending of our faith journey? Based on what I’ve learned, I would say that it’s just the beginning. Salvation is the gateway to drawing near to God, understanding His Kingdom message, and making disciples.

Poem: Salvation


Written By Michelle Lai

Close your eyes and see
The hour you first believed
Jesus knocked on your heart
You answered and that’s a start
Salvation is a free gift for all
If only you answer His call
It is a precious gift
So don’t give it a miss
The moment might be now
You were lost but now found
Wherever you might be
Jesus has set you free
I want to worship now

There is nothing sweeter than this

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