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To My Pre-Covid-19 Self, From 2020 Me

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Ooh, I’d put that fancy 2020 diary down if I were you. I know, I know, you’re tremendously excited at the thought of the start of a new decade, and to be fair, things are looking quite rosy in December.  But in just a couple of months, life, as you’ve grown accustomed to, will be pulled from under your feet. I’m sorry, it is as bleak as it sounds. 

3 Truths to Navigate A Season of Uncertainty

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In 2019, I spent seven months in Israel for my research attachment as a graduate student. As I reflect on my journey to and in Israel, I have seen how God provided for me and grew my faith through 19 flights, 8 airports, five countries/states and a lifetime of experience. Here are three truths that I have learned and re-learned about God during this time.

3 Things I Learned When I Couldn't Find A Job

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Fresh out of college, I decided to dedicate one year to serving in a non-profit organization involved in youth outreach work. I figured, Hey! I’m young and I’m armed with a good degree from a good university. I shouldn’t have trouble finding a job later. I was wrong. Perhaps right now you are in the same position I was back then, worrying about your job prospects in light of the current Covid-19 pandemic. If so, I hope the lessons I’m about to share will help you through this uncertain and trying time.

How to Grow in Faith When You Feel Stuck

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In the beginning, my heart was filled with hope and enthusiasm. I prayed to God and told Him that if He wanted me back in Singapore, I would obey. However, if His will was for me to stay in the UK, that doors of opportunity would open. I continued with my job hunt and actively expanded my network in hopes of meeting a future employer. But as time went by, my hope and enthusiasm waned. My applications were rejected one after another. Even my writing submissions were declined.

Yes, God Will Give You More Than You Can Handle

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I looked over at One-Ear, who was lying nearby, knocked out by the local anesthesia.  Hot, salty tears began to form in my eyes and run down my cheeks, as the reality of saying goodbye to my loyal little companion of 19 years hit home. Not this too, Lord. Walking home afterward with my cat’s empty carrier in my limp hand was like trying to wade through fast-setting concrete. The trials and mental anguish l had endured in the previous 12 months—depressive episodes, burnout, and agoraphobia—weighed me down until l felt like l couldn’t take another step.

How Can I Trust God When Life Is So Uncertain?

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This time last week, I was boarding a last-minute flight home to the UK from Austria, moments after the Austrian government had announced a national lockdown in response to the global spread of the coronavirus. Stepping aboard a plane full of anxious passengers and cagey crewmembers was an unsettling flying experience I won’t soon forget.

Where Was God in My Job-Hunting Struggles?

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By the end of my second summer after college, I was still jobless and had moved back in with my parents—something I vowed I would never do.

Does Planning Show A Lack of Faith?

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Should I have simply trusted that God would provide for me, and moved cities without working to plan ahead? Did my planning reveal an immature faith that doubted God’s provision? I was not sure how to strike a balance between trusting God while doing my part.

A Dream I Had to Give Up . . . Hong Kong

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You know that oft-quoted verse, Jeremiah 29:11? I hate it. If you bring it up to me right now, I’m liable to break down in tears or leave the room, slamming the door behind me.