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I Was on the Brink of Killing Myself

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Planning my route to the place where I wanted to kill myself, I cried out to God in utter desperation for the first, and what I thought would be, the last time.

From Bulimia to Depression: Jesus' Firm Grip on Me in the Midst of Mental Illness

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But just as I began to turn less to binge-eating as a coping mechanism, the despair I was already feeling intensified and I fell deep into the darkness of clinical depression. Every new dawn brought with it an onslaught of suicidal thoughts, and there were countless days where I felt utterly dysfunctional and bedridden.

Losing Jarrid Wilson: Where Do We Go From Here?

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It was a few years ago that Jarrid Wilson and I were invited to the same event and we ended up staying connected afterwards. We chatted and encouraged each other, as we were both young adult pastors and had a lot in common. Every single interaction I ever had with him was life-giving.

“I Know How You Feel” & Other Things Not To Say

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Title: “I Know How You Feel” & Other Things Not To Say Artwork…

Editor’s Picks: Best of the Conversation About Suicide

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Suicide is one of the toughest topics to talk about. It can be tempting to sweep the "S word" under the carpet, skirting around the issue. But what if we fostered a Christ-centered dialogue around suicide instead?

When Social Media Determined A Teen's Death

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On 13 May 2019, 16-year-old Davia Emilia from Malaysia posted on social media expressing her weariness at life. Via an Instagram story, she requested that her followers vote on whether she should continue living or die.

I Just Wanted A Restart

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It was not the first time I tried to end my own life. It was as if I had sunk into a sea of emptiness. In despair, all I could do was curl up in a ball, hold my breath, and hope that life—and my pain—would end quickly.

A Letter to SHINee’s Jonghyun: What If There was Hope?

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I was in disbelief when I first heard the news that you took your own life. I didn’t believe it was real. I thought it was a hoax, a sick prank someone had played. I couldn’t believe someone as jovial and happy-go-lucky as you would ever commit suicide.

The Time I Attempted Suicide

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Pills and broken glass, tears and blood, fear and despair. It was one of the darkest nights of my life. I didn’t want to do it yet I couldn’t see how to face the next day. The pain of ending everything there and then seemed lesser compared to the pain of going on.