Written By Priscila Stevanni, Indonesia
It was one of the most distressing periods of my life. I was midway through my medical internship in the hospital’s surgery department, in a town I had never set foot in before. Back-to-back night shifts, sleepless nights, and an unending amount of notes to go through were taking their toll on me.
A friend of mine reminded me to keep praying. I immediately answered, “I am at a stage where I feel that praying doesn’t help me anymore. I can’t feel God’s presence. He hasn’t done anything to ease my burden.”
So I started to skip my routine of Bible reading. I prayed only because it was a habit—something I did every day before I went to sleep and before I ate. I didn’t even pay any attention to what I was praying for. I stopped sharing my feelings with God and asking Him for anything, because I felt that He didn’t understand how difficult and weary my life was. I retreated from God completely.
One day, a nurse came up to me out of nowhere and asked if I went to church. I looked at her blankly, trying to recall if I had ever told her that I was a Christian. She asked me the same question again. I replied, “Of course I go to church.”
She shook her head and said, “No, I mean do you go to church here?”
“Here?” I repeated, still trying to figure out why she was asking me such a question. “No, all this hospital work keeps me busy, even on Sundays. I don’t have time to go to church.” The reality was that I had never even tried to look for a church in the neighborhood to attend.
“Now you’re making excuses, kid,” she said. “It’s really important to go to church. Put God first.”I was speechless. It was as if God was speaking to me through the nurse.
“There is a church around here, you just need to take a little walk from the hospital,” she added, before walking off and leaving me alone at the nurse station.
I felt so touched that I almost couldn’t hold back my tears. It was like hearing God saying directly to me, “Hey, I miss you.”
God had proved me wrong. He does care about me on my darkest nights. And He does care about you too.