I battled with insecurities, feelings of inadequacy, and ugliness for as long as I can remember.
In those unpleasant moments, I sometimes wonder: Do other women feel the same way? I believed I was alone in the struggle. Consumed and blinded by the lies of my emotions, I became self- absorbed—seeing nothing but my own hurts and pains. It was like I could not see pass my own nose. I seem to unwittingly surrender to the falsehood of my sentiment and pride; I completely succumbed to the trickery of my emotions.
No, I am not trying to shame myself for the whole world to see. I know this is something you don’t admit to people especially when you are a Christian. It is best to tuck away the nasty emotions neatly so no one would notice them. However, I have now come to realize that I am not alone in this struggle. Many Christian women battled with insecurities, feelings of inadequacy, and ugliness too.
I am publicly writing this not only because it’s true in my life but also for the purpose that other women could gain the victory that I’ve recently won in this area.
In my recent visit to China, a Chinese sister taught me a memorable lesson about beauty.
During the trip, we had the rare opportunity to learn about women in the Bible with the Chinese believers for two weekends. One of the women in our team shared that a Chinese girl confided to her group during sharing time. This Chinese girl’s parents had constantly told her that she would not amount to anything worthwhile. Because of this, she felt devalued and unlovely. Talk about feeling insecure and ugly. This girl has it rough.
But when she accepted Jesus Christ as Savior and Lord, she proclaimed that she no longer felt that way because she has glory beauty.
Her parents have not changed, but she has changed. She no longer sees herself as trash. Her negative self-perception was overturned because she now sees the reality of her beauty. Her beauty does not come from herself or her parents; it comes from God. She is beautiful because she has glory beauty.
I have never heard anyone say anything like that before. But it’s exactly what every woman of God should hear. I know it’s what I needed to hear. She is so right in affirming the power of this truth! These two simple words “glory beauty” lingered in my soul and made me realize that I am beautiful because I am His child.
I have glory beauty.
There is no reason for me to feel uncertain about who I am or to doubt my worth. I have no reason to hold on to the lie that I am unattractive because I belong to Jesus.
As daughters of the King, we have glory beauty. Our value does not come from what others say about us or what our emotions tell us, but what God says about us. The world may train us to think otherwise, but we do not need to continue on its deceptive path. I will not let my insecurities convince me that I am ugly again, because I know that I am highly valued—I am God’s child created in His own image.
“So God created mankind in his own image, in the image of God he created them; male and female he created them” (Genesis 1:27 NIV).
To my Chinese sister, thank you for those words. You certainly spoke words of life to my dry bones. The weight of what you said in those two simple words lifted the burden I had imprisoned myself with. You taught me how to break free from that prison.