I’m rounding out my second official week on lockdown, but I’m starting to feel like maybe I just shouldn’t keep track. What began as a three-week mandate will probably soon be extended as Covid-19’s impact continues to grow exponentially.
The reality of COVID-19 hit home hard for me on March 12 when one of my favorite musicians, Dermot Kennedy, announced that his concert the next day was canceled. My husband and I had bought tickets for this concert months ago, anticipating a sold out show. But just hours before it was to start, we found out it wouldn’t be happening.
On March 13, our governor would put a limit on social gatherings of 250 people (that limit has since been lessened even further). That same day, a friend’s birthday party was canceled. On March 14, it was a school event. The next week was full of additional cancellations—church groups, movie premieres, other parties, flights, trips—it felt like everywhere I turned, the next thing was falling off the list.
And I’m embarrassed to admit it, but I still haven’t crossed out any of those things on my calendar. For me, a full calendar is a happy one. It represents fun, variety, social connections, outings, entertainment, and if I’m honest—satisfaction and purpose.
I’m an extroverted person, and I find that people and conversation fill my tank, but these past few weeks, as activities, school, and outings have gone from slowing down to completely grinding to a halt, I’ve had to search my heart and question what happens when staying still is my only choice.
A few years ago, God laid a specific verse on my heart. It’s from Psalm 46:10, which says, “Be still, and know that I am God”. After committing this verse to mind for an entire year, my Bible study leader at the time gave me a piece of artwork with the verse on it, which now hangs on my wall as a daily reminder. As I’ve been spending a lot more time at home, I am thankful for this gift of biblical truth.
Depending on the day, different parts of this verse stand out more. Be still. And know. I am God.
He calls us to be still. A reminder that people, places, and events may be fun but can often be distractions of noise and hussle that get in the way of us sitting at the feet of our Maker and asking Him to direct our path and purpose.
He wants us to know that He is God. While the world swirls around us and the anxiety of another headline can push us to the brink, He is in and over it all.
And so, while my social outings have completely diminished, my spiritual awareness has been heightened. Now that I’m unable to talk through my issues with close friends, I’ve been challenged to bring my concerns and fears directly to God Himself.
And God has started to peel back the layers of my heart to reveal the places where I’ve filled my need for Him with other engagements for too long.
If you’re feeling bummed about being on lockdown, I hope you’ll allow Him access to your heart over the next few weeks, too, and be challenged by what He uncovers and reveals to you.