Sometimes I feel like I’m a failure, unworthy to accept His grace. Yet, God doesn’t keep my “failures” in His check-and-balance book. Instead, as Max Lucado puts it in his book, Come Thirsty, God beckons me to come “drink deeper in grace.”
One of the most natural habits I acquired through life was that of putting myself down. I didn’t need anyone talking down at or to me because I was already so good at doing it to myself.
I have been a Christian for 11 years, and was the first in my family to come to Christ. By God’s grace, my mom and sister came to know the Lord a year after me. About a year ago, my brother also came to the Lord thanks to the efforts and prayers of his colleagues.
I grew up in a Christian family but began asking a lot of questions about the faith in high school. Questions about God began to emerge as I studied chemistry, physics, and math, but nobody—not my teachers, Sunday school teachers, or even the youth pastor—seemed able to answer my questions satisfactorily.
It all started with my second rejection for a work placement.
I had applied for two work placements—one with an independent publishing company and the other with the university where I was pursuing my Master’s.