“S”—supportive. This implies I am someone who tends to play a support role better than a leadership role. That I am always on the agreeable side, and prefer to follow, not to lead. When I searched my heart, I knew that I did naturally tend to accommodate and value harmony, and I really had no desire to lead.
Singleness was never a gift I asked God for. Instead, I have always desired companionship and to start my own family, so the more years I move up in my twenties, the more tempted I am to detest this gift and “exchange” it for the gift of marriage.
My husband and I make it a point to always kiss each other goodbye before we go our separate ways. At the front door, when he leaves for work and I’m holding a crying baby in one arm and a clingy toddler in the other—no matter what the circumstance—we kiss each other goodbye.
To my 25-year-old self,
It’s now been three years since you questioned why God wouldn’t give you a boyfriend.
Believe it or not, I’m now the girl you envy: the one with the boyfriend.
I was listening to one of my favorite Christian radio shows, and the topic that day was fear. I thought to myself, “I really don’t have a problem with fear,” but I listened anyway. Fast forward about 10 years . . . Now I can tell you about fear.