Pent Up Feelings

By Tabita Cioloca, 17, Romania

I’m puzzled at how people can keep their emotions so well hidden. Imagine the buildup pressure due to the suppressed feelings. It’s like a time bomb, waiting to explode anytime. I doubt I could handle that sort of pressure everyday! But sometimes I find myself caught in such a predicament, and it is not pleasant at all.

A while ago, I experienced one of such moments. I remember the deep longing for happiness and peace in my life. I prayed for these things, hoping for God to come and fill my thirsty heart with them. But God showed me that I was searching in the wrong places for the wrong things. I was counting on people to make me happy, and waiting for things to bring me peace. But that should not be the case. Jesus Himself is the love, peace and happiness. In fact, what I should be longing for wasn’t all those material things, but Jesus Himself!

Often during Christmas, I would be bursting with energy—ready to go caroling, and participate in many other activities. However, when it is over, I end up feeling disappointed and sad. In 2010, I promised myself that Christmas would be different. I will not dwell on unhappy things and let emotions rule over me. Jesus endured much for us, so why can’t I do this for Him?

Despite this understanding, there were still moments when my heart was lonely or my soul needed refreshing. But I chose to be happy and I wanted it to be seen on my face. And God is good. When my spirit was down, He lifted me up with the beautiful snow-covered landscape or a text message from a friend.

I noticed that many people were sad on Christmas day. But why should we be sad when we get to celebrate the birth of our Savior, Jesus Christ? He came so that we will not die but have eternal life. Isn’t that the best gift anyone can ever receive?

Not only did He give us His only Son, He also promised us that He will never “leave us nor forsake us” (Hebrews 13:5). This promise is the reason why I want to call on God in every aspect of my life. And God bids us to come in Jeremiah 33:3. He invites, “Ask me and I will tell you remarkable secrets you do not know about things to come.”

Yes, all we need to do is go to Him; we don’t have to suppress our feelings. We can tell Him everything.

4 replies
  1. Danny Lim
    Danny Lim says:

    And that my sister, is all about life..God is great isn’t He…praise Him forever more.God is always good to us because He created us. He would not have done so if He doesn’t love us. We were placed on this earth for a purpose only He knows…i sometimes pondered about what God’s purpose for me in life but i still could not figure it out.
    Thank you for quoting (Jeremiah 33.3). It enlightens me a lot in knowing what God’s purpose is for me now….
    God bless

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  2. Denise Pierce
    Denise Pierce says:

    Through you God has reminded me that happiness is not found in people or circumstances but in Him. We get depressed when we look for happiness in the wrong place because only a life focused on Jesus will bring us the happiness we all desire. Thank you for being God’s obedient servant and writing what He has put on your heart.

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